I had a week or two of feeling pretty shut off and contracted. I was making up all kinds of garbage about myself – “I’m not good enough”, “Things aren’t going to turn out.” On top of everything else, I was embarrassed because I am supposed to be evolved and all together as a teacher of love. I am usually the cheerleader, and now I was in need of cheerleading.
So I reached out for support. And searched my soul. And told some hard truths. In all of it, some amazing new growth occurred for me. New possibilities emerged that I hadn’t seen before. I refocused and recommitted. I returned to activities that feed my body and soul.
But what really set me free?
My son turned 18 last weekend and I wanted to do something special to celebrate his adult milestone. He really wanted to go to the beach, so I rented a couple of hotel rooms right off the Boardwalk in Santa Cruz. My daughter brought a friend, my son brought his girlfriend and a friend, my sister and her family joined in and we all had a blast together! Rides on the Santa Cruz Boardwalk, swimming in the ocean, ice cream on the beach, a sand volleyball game, sushi dinner, playing loud music in the car with the windows down, searching for Easter eggs in our hotel room, and a family board game.
What made me so happy? The fact that I was giving to all of these people, giving to my son, giving to myself. I wasn’t in my head trying to figure things out, trying to get anything in particular, trying to be anyone special. I was giving from my heart to the people I love. And that reconnected me to myself, to my passion and appreciation for life, for love, for relationship!
Christian and I watched a film last night called Kindness is Contagious. It documents what happens for human beings when we give and are given to, how it connects us and inspires us and spreads like a loving virus from person to person.
Last week, my shoemaker told me it would take two weeks to fix my boots. I commented to him about how I was going to miss them as I wore them every day, and as I left, he said, “I will get right on it!” The next day his wife surprisingly called to say my boots were done. I was so grateful that I purchased a bunch of handmade dark chocolate pieces and delivered them as a thank you for his early gift. His giving inspired my giving, and I couldn’t have been happier for the opportunity to show my appreciation!
So here I am, today, thinking about what I can give to you. What can I offer you that might make a difference, put you back in touch with yourself and your heart, and restore your passion and aliveness?
I recommend that you reach out and give to someone – a compliment, a gift, your time, a joke, a song, an apology – anything! Give to someone today, and see if it doesn’t soften you, reconnect you and step you back into love’s space where you are reminded that all is well, you are beautiful, and this is a blessed life!